stop this train

please someone stop it. "so scared of getting older. i'm only good at being young." john mayer says it soooooooo good. has anyone else noticed that? i'm leaving tomorrow, lots of people have already left and yeah. okay. i'm like. paralyzed by emotions right now. hahaha. i swear for the past like ten posts i've been like "i have so many emotions, i'm so overwhelmed by my emotions, blah blah blah." but for real. i can't handle it! i'm so sad to leave. i'm so happy to go home. i'm going to miss my friends going on missions so much. i'm so proud of them for going and would be sad if they weren't. not living with jessica is going to be the worst thing ever. just. blah. i could go on forever.

by the way. blogging traffic from mary is seriously going to go down this summer. i'll be living at home. and have no friends. and be working at little caesars again. and nothing else will be happening. woohoo.

i wish i were good at change. i wish i could just say. "freshman year was great." smile about it and move on. but. i am having a really hard time letting go. can't i just have a couple more weeks. please? no. i know i can't. fine. whatever. haha. speaking of the word whatever.. have you guys seen this? so hilarious and so true. and so applicable to my life lately. i've been being the girliest girl lately. but you can't blame me.

okay anyway. so my birthday was good in case anyone was wondering. well. good is relative. birthdays aren't even fun anymore. it's just like... i'm getting older. and i feel like getting older stopped being fun pretty much after i turned sixteen. driving and dating is good enough for me. see? not good at change. also i wanted to hang out with a certain boy. and that didn't so much happen. also. a question: why do boys hate me? anyway. here are some pics from my birthday and a couple cute things i've stumbled upon. much love--Mary
PS check out this lovely ladies blog. she made me an amazing picture and it's a motto i really need to adopt, speaking of boys hating me.